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Charlie Sheen has always been one of the most celebrated actors in the US. The love he has received from the audience over the years is extraordinary. Of course, controversies have been there, and that’s how you know that with lots of fame comes lots of shame. That’s part of the reason that the actor is bringing his documentary to Netflix.

This time, the Two and a Half Men star is looking back, and not all of it is pretty. While promoting his upcoming Netflix documentary, aka Charlie Sheen, and memoir, The Book of Sheen, he admitted that there are moments from his past he still can’t shake… even more than a decade later.

The biggest shadow, of course, is his 2011 firing from Two and a Half Men. When the sitcom was at its peak, and Sheen had gained worldwide stardom, his struggles with drug addiction spilt into public view. Oh, and it was ugly. His exit became one of TV’s most notorious scandals.

Now at 60, Sheen says it is the one decision that still gnaws at him, and he still regrets it terribly. He told People, “If I hadn’t done what I had, I could be living a different life right now.”

What does Charlie Sheen mean by “shame shivers”?

Sadly, his sobriety over the years hasn’t erased the memories. In the same interview, he coined the phrase “shame shivers” with reference to his past. He described it as those random waves of guilt when an old mistake hits you out of nowhere. He referred to them as “heinous memories and choices and consequences”. The good thing is that he also admitted that with time, they are getting farther in between and called it progress.

But as much as those memories haunt him, Sheen said the surprising part of making amends has been how forgiving people in his life are. He definitely got lucky that way. He said that most of the people in his life have forgiven him, but they have also shown concern about whether he has done the same for himself. Although he admits that the last part is the hardest, while also agrees that self-acceptance is indeed a work in progress for him.

One thing that Sheen is absolutely clear about is that neither his memoir nor the Netflix doc is about rewriting history or painting himself as a victim. He has admitted over the years that he has spent much of the last decade making amends, and both projects are his way of finally putting those stories into his own words.

And though it looks like a comeback from the outside, Charlie Sheen prefers to frame it differently. He calls this moment a reset and not a return to old glory. And this time, instead of chasing headlines, he has decided to choose to focus on whatever comes next.

So if you are willing to look forward to having a peek into the life of the actor, all you need is the wait of a couple of days, as The Book of Sheen is due out September 9th, with aka Charlie Sheen arriving on Netflix September 10th.